pictures to prove that im still living,
at least still breathing.

 

 

tomorrow’s the day.

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swings.

you know i need more than this.

 

i don’t know.
i really don’t.

it shouldn’t be like this at all.

 

 

My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

明知道爱你不会有结果
为何还如此执着
为你付出所有
你竟不顾一切就走
明知道爱你只是继续错
为何还如此脆弱
已经习惯有你
已经不能将你摆脱

也许当一场梦
梦醒一切都随风

discouraged.

i don’t know why.
i just have a dying need to blog before i do anything else.
everything was okay the whole day.
but i got home,
feeling like shit once again.

 

okay talentime is finally over.
don’t want to comment about it.
the point is, it’s over already.
lalalalahs. im glad it’s over and done with.

on tuesday,
jieying and gina brought me herbal tea
because i was having a sore throat.
so niceeeee of them.
btw,
i haven’t recover yet. -.-

 

whatever lah.
now the most important thing is this coming friday.
hais.

there is phonetics test tomorrow lah.
i need to go prepare already.
i still think i suck at it.

 

nothing is easy in this world.
acting, singing, studies,
there’s nothing i really excel in.
and thats pathetic.

i need to buck myself up on the
long roller coaster ride ahead.

 

 

i need some introspection.

okay doks, i know im obsessed with blogging.
IM SORRY OKAY!
so much for complaining that i have no time. -.-
okay whatevers.
i wanted to do phonetics.
but im too fucking lazy to do it.
phonetics is a pain in the ass.
just like someone out there.
blah.

shit, not again,
what is it that i want to blog about?

oh yes, i told gina i will blog about her today!
because she just pluck her tooth
and shes so cute today!
ulti cuteness.
i love her reaction when i say she look like chipmunks.
hahahahhaa.
chipmunks is god damn cute okay!
treat is as a compliment!

haha, but still get well soon!
my little cheeky gina! hehehe.

come to think about it,
although we still have conflicts,
internal conflicts within conflicts,
class politics, and what not,
im really still thankful of the people around me.

true enough, sometimes it really get a bit tiring,
unbearable, miserable, painful.
but i think we will still get through somehow.
at least thats wad i hope for.

like what i said today to them,
we human beings okay at least women in this case
is programmed in such a way that we need to bitch and gossip,
somehow or another.
but the key here is,
no hard feelings involved.
i might talk bad about you,
not because i want to hate you,
but because i need an avenue to let out my anger,
but tomorrow we are still good friends.
because we accept and appreciate.
at least thats what happen in bubble puff girls.
and i think thats good enough for me.
for now.

okay i really need to stop my bitching habits!
(wah sound like im very bad.. but anyways.)
we need to accept people for who they are.
okay im trying hard can! lol.

but one thing i cannot accept about this stupid bitch is,
hello, you are the one stiring up things in janel’s blog
with the stupid photo and yet you claim in your blog
that we should grow up and stop fighting?!?!

i don’t know why its affecting me.
didn’t even get involved in the whole thing.
but i really cannot stand people like you.

you are a loser who revolves your arguement around looks
and twist the story to be seen as the victim.

HOW ABOUT GO AND DRINK PEE AND EAT SHIT.
okay im done.

tomorrow the sun is going to shine
without losers like them.

pearlyn, remember what i said to you.
we are going to move on,
be happy about life,
and leave this losers behind.
let them go choke themselves
with their pea brain. ARGH.

 

okay im really done!

the saddest song

love is sometimes really a very funny thing.
it is not reciprocated,
and it flows like sequential interdependence
where one member influence the next
who in turn influence the next.

one member like someone
who in turn like somebody else
who then like another person.

its such a funny and cruel thing.

don’t you think sometimes
fate just love to play with us?

and the best thing is,
neither of us can do anything about it.

screw this thing called love.
so how about bringing me a screwdriver tomorrow? -.-

pushed

im very worried now.
because im losing my voice.
which i really cannot afford to.
this week is really a very very important week for me.
i have been drinking water and trying my best to avoid fried food.
so please, i need to recover completely by wed. -.-

anyway, group dynamics test is postpone to wednesday.
so much for studying so hard over the weekends.
hopefully i will manage to squeeze some time
to revise and refresh my memory tomorrow night after tc
which i suppose is going to end very late.
and i bet im going to be 3/4 dead by then.
tsk.

i feel like a superwomen now
with my crazy packed schedule.

i am going to be physically and mentally drained.

 

I need a little more luck than a little bit.

so to speak.

okay, im going to overcome all this.
im going to overcome the stupid damn test tomorrow.
im going to do it.
im going to sleep with my notebook tonight. =\

 

i have a lot of things that i wanted to blog just now.
but my mind was distracted by quite a lot of things.
now i cant remember wad i wanted to blog.
zzz.

i have used two days of my life to lick chapter one of GD.
so good luck to me on phonetics.

fanaetIks sa:kz
“phonetics sucks”

-.-

ya dah ya dah ya dah.
im going to sleep soon.
hectic week ahead.
say good luck to me,
i need extra super lot of luck this coming week.

and shit, i havent find inspirational things
to present on thursday.
any ideas? ):

 

opposite attracts,
but for how long?
people change so as to be accepted,
but for how long?
good questions to ponder on.

my ladder

where dreams are too far to be reached.
will i ever have that day?
I don’t know if i ever have the courage to push on. ):

sometimes maybe with lesser expectation, come lesser disappointment.

bleeding love

not very productive today.
i wake up at 3pm, studied a little and fall aslp at 5pm again.
okay i know i am a pig. -.-

during the nap,
i dream of him!
(bubble puff girls, you know who)
omg, i swear its a…
stupid and impossible dream.
okay whateverrr.
its just plain retard-ness.

the whole day, i just managed to write notes.
meaning, i cant study for the DAMN phonetics tomorrow.

im still feeling sleepy. -.-
that’s my pathetic life.

 

 

Scars in my heart that you left
heal me, im not strong like you.

my pathetic weekends ahead are for studying,
studying, studying and more studying! ):

i have a boring and pathetic life.
so bye, im going to start to lick chapter one for group dynamics.
yes, im going to l-i-c-k  it.