crashed.

“bring me to life” -evanescence

How can you see into my eyes,
Like open doors
Leading you down into my core,
Where I’ve become so numb.
Without a soul. My spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold,
Until you find it there and lead it back home.

Wake me up inside,
Wake me up inside,
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run,
Before I come undone,
Save me from the nothing I’ve become.

Now that I know what I’m without,
You can’t just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real,
Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
Without your love, darling,
Only you are the life among the dead.

I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems,
Got to open my eyes to everything.

ouch, it hurts
because i saw a broken girl.

invisible

6 journals dued on a date i don’t know.
half way through the third one.
the word here is i should be consistent.
but screw it, whoever who knows me should know how inconsistent i am.
ha, but time for a change right?
but still, last min rule still stay.
im just too lazy.

im irritated with the stupid china phone
im irrtated with my window xp’s msn
(it didn’t show the contacts i added recently. which means EVERYONE from singapore poly is missing)
i tried re-installing. still cant. ROAR.
im irritated with damn friendster
(refuse to upload my photos)
oh and i give up trying to upload photos to photo bucket.
so TOO BAD.
just what the fuck is wrong with everything?

on a lighter note,
im excited for school!
school keeps me out of thinking from things that i shouldnt.
school makes me happy
i love my course!
devised drama tml!
hurray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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today, i was reminded of you so many fucking times.
photos, places, people, …..
a wrong choice back then.
probably if i wait a little longer,
it wouldnt hurt like now.

Everyday is so wonderful
And suddenly, I saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I’m so ashamed.

at the end of the day,
i have myself to blame.