a long bus ride

im seriously damn bloody sick
i sat near the window trying to get some sleep
my music played
its not our song
but i don’t know what got into me.
i don’t know if its the sickness
or if its the song
or anything else that matters
but right there and then,
i begin to tear
i wanted to cry out loud so badly.
and i don’t know why.

its only then i realised,
i must have really missed you very much.

in times like this,
i miss you even more.
craving for your warmth touch
longing for your embrace that will bring me through the night.

in times like this,
i want you even more to be by my side
and take care of me like how you used to.

but i realised thats not possble anymore.
move on, vivian.

i feel so bad mentally, physically and emotionally right now.
i just wanna drift off to sleep and never wake up again.
but i have to wait for my remedy to open.
mr doctor.

it seems so short, but this one hour is gonna be a long wait.