goodbye.

so many so many things to say.
yet i dunno how to start.

everyday humans keep changing,
new things come along,
old things go away.

something new might come along tomorrow, next week, next year..
but i lost something precious today.

“friendship” if thats what it is.

maybe i have never grew mature, thoughtful enough to keep my friendships.
17 years of my life, im constantly losing important friends, important person in my life.

maybe this time its for real,
i really did hurt you.
i know im at fault,
its always me.
im sorry.

i never deny the fact that im immatured,
that im selfish,
that im a bitch.
i really just didnt think about it so much at that time.
i don’t know wad im toking about.
my mind is in a mess.

maybe its really impossible to turn a lover into a friend.
maybe it should never had happened.
because i have to go through the same pain again
of losing.

im sorry.
thats the only thing i can say to you right now.

goodbye my friend.

picking myself up, all over again.