Do you or do you not?

whats a home? a place that u can study peacefully, live peacefully, eat peacefully, slp peacefully, play peacefully, watch television peacefully? then i am sure my home isnt called a home. at the age of 10, you seems like the age of 16. doing whatever you like and shouting at whoever you want to. i choose to close my eyes. i pretend to be deaf and blind. perhaps i am selfish. its my own freaking brother but i couldnt even give a damn about it. its because i no longer know how to or wad method to use anymore. i jus feel like letting him rot somewhere. i couldnt be bothered, hes beyond hope.

but then again, who would want him to lead himself to self destruction? but wad could i do to stop him from doing all these? no matter how much of scolding wouldnt work. he jus treat as he didnt listen to wadever i have said or jus choose to fight back with me. stopping him from playing the computer wouldnt help either. instead, he went on to go out because he doesnt have computer to play. dont try to ask me to speak nicely to him. it wouldnt help either. zzz so tell me, what more could i do?

everynight, they quarrel as if it was no one else’s business and are totally ignorant about the fact that i need to study because i have test on the next day. wad more could i do?

dear god, enlighten me.

so pls be grateful that you dont have to suffer from such stupid things that ultimately affect ur mood and add on to ur stress lvl. why must i be forced to faced all those things? wad a pathetic life.

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anyway, dont think that im trying to act pitiful or wadever, i jus need a space to vent all these disappointments, stress, and angers on. mayb tml will be a better day.

i’ve been really down on luck this few days.

why are there two meanings to whatever you do? i am starting to get confused.

couldnt figure out why.

i blog because someone insist that i should close down my blog if i dun wan to blog. and that person is … (MS HUILUN). ok so no words but two creative pictures for you!

before. sinhou’s two moles.

after my creativity, it becomes like this! (:

i could no longer see

WHO THE HELL SHALL I BELIEVE. i am a 16 year old girl. not god. i cant see and judge who is telling the truth. did they realise that wad they are doing are hurting me? i force myself to treat it that nth has happen and to leave it in god’s hand to decide. but now, it seem even more complicated. why mus i experience the life that most ppl of my age doesnt?

i seriously hope to be someone else.

went to play badminton today followed by a movie 200 pounds beauty. omg its damn good. theres actually a lot of things i wanna say. but now, i seriously have no mood now.

perhaps i was being too cruel. i dont know. i really dont know wad should be done. what should i do. what should i think. there are so many things in my brain that i do not think my brain can contain anymore that its gonna burst and i will go crazy very soon.

i wanna get drunk. seriously.

a new beginning of all things

yes this will be my new blogspace, a new space for me to groan, grumbble, complain, share my joys with.

jus got back, pretty tired. im heading to bed now. post another time. BYE!